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Welcome to my personal weblog! I have many areas of interest as a Christian wife and home schooling mother of 6 girls: writing, poetry, website design, digital photography, a home business (sewing); however, this blog will focus more on the wonderful journey the Lord has brought our family through and what the Lord has shown me in His Holy Word.

I know that my devotionals don't often speak of specifics in our lives, but I want my readers to know that what I write comes most often from what the Lord is doing in our lives, or has done. I don't just repeat words by this preacher or that one. My devotionals are often written through a haze of tears, sometimes in grief, sometimes in peace at God's goodness for what He is doing for our good. At other times, after a flood of tears over my lack of faith in His great plan for us, especially after I've seen Heaven's gates open in another miraculous answer to prayer. What I write is what God shows me through those trials which He brings because of His great goodness as He works out His perfect plan. - Angela.

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“… we are the Clay, and Thou our Potter…”

Originally posted July 2010. Edited April 2, 2014

For those who’ve read some recent posts, you’ve been reading how the Lord has been leading us through some trials. This is a continuation of sorts, but what God showed me the morning of July 3rd, 2010 has me in complete awe and wonder and His mercy & grace in our lives.

Years ago, I felt our lives as Christians were just too easy. I know that the Bible says:

Yea, and all that will live godly in Christ Jesus shall suffer persecution. 2 Timothy 3:12

I kept feeling that I must be a failure as a Christian because we weren’t under persecution. We had gone through  a hefty bout 13 years ago with attacks on our family and me personally, and an occasional upheaval through the years. They just seemed like nothing compared to what I saw other Christians going through. Don’t get me wrong! I really DO NOT relish going through persecution, but I felt that the Lord must think my faith is so weak, that I couldn’t handle much. These were feelings I was putting on myself. It was not the Lord’s doing.

What I was failing to see is that the Bible doesn’t say we will have persecution ALL the time, just that we will. I was also failing to see that, as the Potter, He was molding and shaping me/our family into what He wants for us in His timing, not ours.

“If a man therefore purge himself from these, he shall be a vessel unto honour, sanctified, and meet for the master’s use, and prepared unto every good work.”  2 Timothy 2:21

“But now, O Lord , thou art our father; we are the clay, and thou our potter; and we all are the work of thy hand.”  Isaiah 64:8

As I go over our current trials, and yes, I will call them persecution as we are being attacked for Christ’s sake, I can see back through the years all the things I thought were so little, yet each and every one was meant to mold and shape us/me into Christians that could handle what we are going through now.

I’ll use an example from my husband’s (dh) work to try and get the point across. There have been many individuals at his work who have tried to cause him trouble over the years, but one by one, he has watched as they’ve come and gone, yet he is still there. One man in particular was so difficult to work with and untrustworthy that no one wanted to work with him. He took particular relish in attacking my husbad, yet my dh never went after him. Well, as I’ve heard many times, when a person’s testimony is good, fling all the mud you want, but it won’t stick! And it didnt’! God removed that man in His timing, not my dh’s. As dh and I discussed this and the mud-slinging on our family happening in another area of our lives, something dawned on me and I expressed it to him: “If you had not gone through all the attacks by “so and so” over the years, would you be able to handle what is happening now?” He said, “Probably not.”

That is when I truly began to see the bigger picture. God had been faithfully shaping and molding us through small but frequent, and bigger but less frequent trials throughout our entire lives. I just wasn’t seeing it! I could relay other instances, but I want God to get the glory here! He did it! Not us! God gave the grace! God gave the mercy & care to see us through so that He would get the deserved glory!

And he is the head of the body, the church: who is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead; that in all things he might have the preeminence. Colossians 1:18

What a wondrous God we serve! He counted us worthy to suffer for Him, and He has NEVER left us alone, and He has left us precious reminders for whe our hearts are lying to us and blinding us to His great purpose for our lives.

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord , thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end” Jeremiah 29:11

“Help me, O LORD my God: O save me according to thy mercy:
27 That they may know that this is thy hand; that thou, LORD, hast done it.” Psalm 109:26

“A psalm of David. The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.
4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.” Psalm 23

What can I do but speak or sing of His mercy & grace!

I will sing of the mercies of the LORD for ever: with my mouth will I make known thy faithfulness to all generations. Psalm 89:1

Holding forth the word of life; that I may rejoice in the day of Christ, that I have not run in vain, neither laboured in vain. Philippians 2:16

But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ’s sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy. 1 Peter 4:13

Thou art worthy, O Lord, to receive glory and honour and power: for thou hast created all things, and for thy pleasure they are and were created. Revelation 4:11

Heart Versus Truth

What if we stopped listening to our hearts when our feelings don’t tell us the truth and instead we chose to believe God’s words more than our fears and doubts?

Let’s map out our thoughts and walk in the power of God’s Word today—living like it is true—no matter what our feelings tell us.

It will be a moment-by-moment, doubt-by-doubt decision. Will you commit to process your thoughts and emotions with God, positioning your heart and mind to let His perspective redefine yours with each uncertainty you face?

With God’s help it’s possible to have lasting Christ-confidence by choosing to remember to believe Him.

- Renee Swope -  A Confident Heart

“…Who for the Joy That Was Set Before Him, Endured the Cross…”

Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God. Hebrews 12:2

The beginning part of this verse, “Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith;” has always been one of my favorites, even to the point of using it as the theme of two of our websites: Looking Unto Jesus Backgrounds and Prints and this blog.

However, for some reason, the meaning of rest of the verse didn’t take root until our pastor recently mentioned it again, and I knew I needed to really dig into it.

“…who for the joy that was set before Him…”

What could have been so wonderful, so joyful, that the Lord was willing to “endure the cross” for? I mean really? He endured what has been considered the most barbaric form of death devised:asphyxiation. Besides all the agony He went through because of the scourging; the beating of the crown of thorns on his head; the nailing of his hands and feet. Our Lord endured all that….for what?

“… who for the joy that was set before Him…”


The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee. Jeremiah 31:3

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16

But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8

Likewise, I say unto you, there is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner that repenteth. Luke 15:10

God Almighty endured all the rejection, humiliation, betrayal, agony and distress for the joy of seeing one soul saved! A sinner finding his way home.

I began to think about how easy it is for me to get down in the dumps about how “hard a time I’m having.” Whatever I have been through, or will go through, is nothing compared to what my Lord went through, yet He could say, “…who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame…”

Did you catch that last part? “…despising the shame…” The Lord didn’t care about the shame He endured. He even despised it. It was nothing compared to the joy of seeing a sinner saved!

What can I set before myself as a joy while I endure the cross that the Lord has given me? Here’s just a few that are on my heart right now:

* My sins are forgiven and I’m a child of the King of kings
* I have a home in Heaven where there is only joy, no crosses to bear
* I will spend eternity with my Saviour, the one who could endure all He did for the joy of seeing me saved

What “cross” are you bearing right now? Wouldn’t it be easier to bear it if your heart and mind were focused on the joy ahead?

Now, make you own list.

Angela Trenholm
January 13th, 2009

Taking a Stand

To be firm stand in some areas of life can be so simple, yet so difficult in other areas. I had been thinking on this when a friend posted one day on Facebook.

Here is an excerpt from a work of Baptist history, “Spurgeon’€™s early complaints centered upon three problems; the decline of prayer meetings among the Baptist churches, the worldliness of ministers relating to entertainment, and doctrinal problems which stemmed from the inroads of the €œhigher criticism€? of that day. This controversy isolated Spurgeon from many who refused to stand with him for the defense of biblical truth. Many believe that the grief and conflict of this battle hastened his death after a period of illness at Mentone in Southern France. He died on Jan. 31, 1892 at 57 years of age. In our day when apostasy abounds, God grant us men of God like him.”

Spurgeon lived a short life, and died young, yet even now his testimony lives on. Things haven’t changed much. Today we still must stand against those same issues. I agree with the author, God grant us men (and women) of God like him. – Abby Louise Allison.

There are individuals, like those who are not part of traditional “Bible believing” circles, for which it is easy to mark the false doctrines and to stay well away from, but what of those who are brethren, yet have departed from sound doctrine in few or many areas? This is what Spurgeon dealt with. He had to separate from his peers and friends on the basis of false doctrine; something which I am seeing more and more for in this day and age. We love these brethren, yet to love the Lord, we are commanded to separate – but of course not treat as enemies.

There seems to be a general hesitancy among Independant Baptist churches to label “our kind” as heretical, cultish, etc. If you doubt this, research how long it took for some so called IFB preachers to be labeled as abusive cult leaders by the majority of IFB churches. However, in order to stand before the Lord in good conscience and not to be respecters of persons, this is what must be done. To stand with those who abuse God’s people, are lords over God’s heritage, and preach their own philosophies as doctrines, is to stand in opposition to the Lord.

In the last few years, I actually removed posts on modesty from my blog which, although they declared a sound doctrinal position on women’s attire and modesty, emphasized man’s philosophies and IFB cult leaders’ quotes, versus the Word of God. Verses had also been pulled out of context to prove their point. For this, I truly apologize. We are to be students of the Word of God, not blindly follow men simply because they have a title. Also, if a position is Biblical, there is no need to twist verses to bolster a sound position. God’s Word stands alone.

May the Lord give each one of us the grace and strength to stand against error and apostasy, regardless of who is the source.

Encouraging My Faith

Originally published Sept. 10, 2011.

Always a good reminder!

Feeling the need to strenghten my faith by reading God`s working in other Christians` lives, I decided to re-read the biography of George Mueller (1805-1898). This man`s life of faith as he began orphanages in England is truly amazing. He never asked for any money, but simply told people what he knew God was leading him to do. As he did so, God always blessed with what was needed. Many times, God sent money from individuals who said it was to be used for a specific purpose that Mueller had told no one about yet.

On one occasion, he prayed for the blessing on the food that he, and around 300 orphans would eat, despite the fact there was no food in the orphanage or on their plates. As prayer finished and they all sat down, the local baker arrive with bread to spare as the Lord laid on his heart the night before to bake it for them. Within a few more minutes, the local milkman arrived on the doorstep asking them to take many bottles of milk off his truck. They needed to be offloaded – to be donated to the orphanage of course – as his truck wheel had broken down right in front of the orphanage, and could not be repaired with all the weight on it. Again, milk for the meal and to spare.

In his life, George Muell helped over 2000 orphans by taking them from the streets and the destitute poor houses. Then caring for their bodies and nurturing their souls with the Word of God. Most went on to lead productive lives and in turn, either continued to help the orphanage in person or by gifts.

The following quote – written in relation to a very large sum required to build another orphanage buildin in 1851 – is what started me wanting to write this note:

“The greatness of the sum required affords me a kind of secret joy; for the greater the difficulty to be overcome, the more will it be seen to the glory of God how much can be done by prayer and faith.”

And it brings to mind this Scripture:

(KJV) Luke 17:6 `And the Lord said, If ye had faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye might say unto this sycamine tree, Be thou plucked up by the root, and be thou planted in the sea; and it should obey you.”

I encourage everyone to read his biography! I have yet to find a better modern day example of what real faith can do, and I need all the help I can get too.

2012 in Review – Testimony

On January 6th, 2013, our church had the annual “Vision Night Service” where our pastor explains the events, conferences, etc. for the church’s coming year, and the direction he feels the Lord is directing the church. A month or so before, Pastor Hutchens challenged us to write short testimonies of what the Lord had done for us this past year, and he put them in the booklet for this year’s events. They were written on small “tag” cards, so not much room, and this is what I wrote:

It has been a  harsh year of trials for our family, but God has proven Himself more faithful and gracious than all the trials. He continues Phillipians 1:6 -

“Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:”

Those who are close to our family know some of what we have gone through, and it is indeed heart wrenching, yet there is so much more that only God knows. This devotional isn’t about all that though. It’s about my best friend, my Jesus, who is always faithful to do exactly what He promised He would do – make me more like Him – whatever it takes!

High And Lifted Up

Updated from 2006:

As I have battled the last few days with sin the that is not visible to others (you know, the typical of going over something in your mind that someone did wrong to YOU!) these verses have really been running through my mind. I am writing this as a saved woman but one who gets the occasional glance of how truly wicked her heart is. Oh that all of us might see that glimpse more often!

 "In the year that king Uzziah died I saw also the Lord sitting upon a throne, high and lifted up, and his train filled the temple. 2 Above it stood the seraphims: each one had six wings; with twain he covered his face, and with twain he covered his feet, and with twain he did fly. 3 And one cried unto another, and said, Holy, holy, holy, is the LORD of hosts: the whole earth is full of his glory. 4 And the posts of the door moved at the voice of him that cried, and the house was filled with smoke. Then said I, Woe is me! for I am undone; because I am a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips: for mine eyes have seen the King, the LORD of hosts. Then flew one of the seraphims unto me, having a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with the tongs from off the altar: 7 And he laid it upon my mouth, and said, Lo, this hath touched thy lips; and thine iniquity is taken away, and thy sin purged. 8 Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for us? Then said I, Here am I; send me. Isaiah 6:1-8 

1. We must see the Lord “high and lifted up”: Too often, I am guilty of not seeing the Lord high and lifted up and to see Him "Holy, holy, holy, is the LORD of hosts." Why else would I choose to sin as I do? Any of us can be so good at cleaning up the outside cup, but what of the cup of our hearts? Is it filled with abominable thoughts? Too often, yes.

2. We must see our sin: This cry has been in my heart: 

“Woe is me! for I am undone; because I am a "woman" of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips: for mine eyes have seen the King, the LORD of hosts."

It is only when we "see" the King, the LORD of hosts, that we truly see our sinful condition, and the need for daily, yay hourly, renewal. This is not being resaved, of course, but the keeping of short accounts with God on our sin by daily confessing them and a daily dying to self. (1 Corinthians 15:31) So when we see the LORD high and lifted up, we will acknowledge our sin and its need to be purged. How willing our Lord is to do that!

"And he laid it upon my mouth, and said, Lo, this hath touched thy lips; and thine iniquity is taken away, and thy sin purged." Isaiah 6:7

Have you ever realized that our sin is the only thing God forgets?

"And their sins and iniquities will I remember no more."  Hebrews 10:17  

How loving and gracious He is to us!

3. We must see the need of the lost world: It is only when we "see" the King, the LORD of hosts, that we truly see the sinful condition of the lost world and how they need the Saviour.

4. We must submit to the need. Finally, when we've seen Him high and lifted up, have seen our sin and the sins of this world, have had ours purged and are now a vessel fit for the Master's use, He calls for a servant to use:

"Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?" Isaiah 6:8a

and we can with eternal gratitude answer:

"Then said I, Here am I; send me." Isaiah 6:8b

Angela Trenholm June 20th, 2006

Christmas Memories – Part 2

Around 6 years ago, we found reindeer antler headbands at the dollar store, and out came the camera. Much to the dismay of our precious children, pictures were taken of each of them. I was fair though, and Lowell and I each had our turn too.
I think this is the one time the children were not rebuked for rolling their eyes! :)

Christmas Memories

My Pastor’s wife challenged he blog readers to think on past Christmas memories. I have two that come to mind.

The first one is of my husband and I’s first Christmas as a married couple. I don’t remember what we bought each other, but what I remember is us having ginger ale marinated BBQ deer steak at our first home (a mobile home) just outside of Moncton, NB, with my brother – Gilles Leger – on December 23rd while it was -30C. It was pretty special!

Next was our second married Christmas, and our first Yeast living in Inuvik, Northwest Territories. Lowell went tree hunting and found the very best he could in that barren land. We laughed at our 3′ ‘Charlie Brown’
tree. It was originally 6 feet or so, but when it fell to the ground after being cut, it broke in 3 places, and the top was reduce to a cute 3′. We put it on a coffee table, added the really cute poinsettia string lights he bought me, some miniature old style glass bell ornaments, and I seem to recall a light weight brass ornament from an aircraft company. Charlie Brown would have been proud! :)  We felt so sorry for those poor dilapidated trees up there that we bought an artificial one the next year. We just threw those pretty poinsettia lights out a couple years ago, and I really miss them.

My usually decorating-reluctant husband surprised me this year by spearheading the decorating in mid-November. Love it! I could have Christmas decorations up all year round, but I won’t push that. LOL